Five years

I wish I could understand

How our friendship crumbled

I miss our friendship

I miss our talks

I miss you

It’s been 5 years

Since I’ve seen you

5 years to long

5 years since I’ve heard your voice

5 years since I’ve last had a hug from you

I don’t know why

But I’m struggling with this

Missing you

I thought I had it under control

I guess I don’t

You were the one

I thought would be in my life forever

But I guess God had other plans

I guess you did your job

Helping me become the person I am today

I saw a mutual friend of ours

She told me

I thought you two would end up together

She said it was in our eyes

How much we cared for each other

She told me

That you were the one for me

That it was supposed to last

So what happened?

Why do I still feel the pain?

Why has it been 5 years?

5 years to long

5 years of hurting and missing you

5 years of not knowing

The cause of our friendship to crumble?

Just know this

I think of you all the time

I think of our talks

Our jokes

And the way your voice reassured me things would be ok.

But most of all I miss your hugs

That’s where I felt the safest

Knowing you would always be there for me

Knowing you would catch me when I fell

But its 5 years that have gone by

I don’t know if you would catch me now

Or if I would feel safe in your arms embrace

I don’t know anything anymore

Because it’s been 5 years

Since I’ve seen you your face & heard your voice.

I wrote this poem after stumbling across some pictures. It made me think of this friend that used to be in my life and used to be the one of the few people in my friendship circle that would always try and make me feel better. This poem was a way for me to express how i was feeling and for me to officially close that door and it will only reopen if God wants it to.