Struggling with the thoughts

No poetry today or short stories just thoughts. It's been a roller coaster ride this semester. New relationship, who is the love of my life. He makes a better person. If it wasn't for him I would probably be so lost in my thoughts that I wouldn't even know who I am anymore. I know that life is a roller coaster ride at times, but this isn't a time I want to be on that roller coaster ride because it's throwing things through a loop. Now if I could magically find the answers to why some of the things that have caused whatever wall to be built between him and I would be wonderful. I just don't know where to start. I know that God always has a plan and he always will. The thought of losing him keeps crossing my mind and it terrifies me. I'm not sure where I would be without him. I've always had a connection with him and I know always will. I always seem to know when something is bothering him even if he doesn't want to admit it. He used to be able to do the same thing with me, but somewhere I've built that wall that prevents him from knowing.

Readers,
Love is a magical thing and then reality sets in and you have to find your way with that person. When conflicts arise don't fast forward through them because I think that's part of the problem right there. Words can be hurtful but sometimes they need to be said. I know I'll fix this with my love and we'll find our path again. I just have to take the wall down one brick at a time.

Until we meet again

Crossroads

Crossroads

Every couple faces them

The strong survive

Compromise is key

And not going down without a fight.

Crossroads

Usually happen when one or both people

Take things for granted

Maybe a breakdown in communication

Maybe both.

Crossroads

They cause pain

It might be needed to mend the brokenness

Of what used to be a perfect relationship

It just shows two people something needs to be fixed

Crossroads

New material coming soon!

Well readers it's been a hectic few months. Between life, work and school, I just haven't had much time to sit down and write. I'm hoping that as soon as the holiday season is over with I can sit down once again and start writing at least drafts of new things and work on the old drafts and fix them.

Until things from Christmas settle down, and I can get back to writing, I hope you all have a wonderful holiday season!

Finding happiness.

It's amazing what happens when you finally start letting go of the past and move forward. It's the texts that make you smile and knowing that it's going slow. It's finally knowing what it feels like to have something feel this natural. It's having that smile back that you thought you had lost for forever. It's knowing that this thing between you and him is going to go somewhere, but you just aren't a 100% sure yet.



Readers, I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Tough choices

It's been a difficult week readers. I have made some tough decisions. I thought that I could keep fighting for what I thought was true love. I still love him, but I can't deal with the absenteeism and the constant worry and wondering of things. If things are supposed to work and it's in God's plan for us than when the timing is right than maybe will cross paths again but until then I'm moving on. He will always have a piece of my heart and I will always love.

The words of a few wise friends is "You deserve better and if he really loves you than it will work out when it's supposed to."

Another wise friend, "I think that this other guy would be good for you. You both have the same experiences with exes."
I got to thinking about those words and they couldn't be more right. I would love to get to know him a little better and see where things takes us. It's all in God's hands, readers.

Well readers, I hope you have a great week!

Do I keep fighting or not?

One minute everything feels like it's falling into place and then then next it's falling apart again

I try fighting but then I find a million reasons to try and give up 

I'm so unsure and I keep praying 

Hoping that somehow I'll find the answer

My heart is yours it always will be 

But this telling me one thing and then going back to exactly how it was 

It doesn't work
You either want me or you don't 

This back and forth of I love you but can't be with you is worse than not having you at all 

I support you 100% all the way.

I am so proud of you 

I will always love you because you are the keeper of my heart. 

No one else will ever have it. 

The Soldier and the Teacher

He protects our country
While she teaches the young minds
He is the hero to a child
And she enriches that child's mind

She leaves the school with a stack of papers to grade
He might not go home tonight because work might keep over
She will sit at the table eat dinner and watch the news
She will pray for the safe return of the soldiers overseas

He doesn't get to tuck his child into bed
or read him that bed time story
He is working hard not only to provide for his family
But to protect everyone's freedom

He's the soldier
She's the teacher
He protects your freedom
She enriches your child's mind


The more I read this I find myself believing that it's unfinished. I'm working on figuring out why I believe that it is unfinished.